| so sad and depressed |
[Apr. 9th, 2005|01:46 am] |
my life has been even more miserable than usual lately..Pwincess has started ruining me even more ..She tricked me out of the last 100 that i had and said that She would talk with me....at 2.50 a minute, but then She only talked with me for 8 minutes. I cried for ages after that.
Then She banned me from going to the cinema with my friends and made me write out lines for Her "ugly irishpiggy can not g to the cinema". I miss my friends. They think im becoming a recluse and i suppose i am. They often wonder what i get up to when i go off by myself.
I was just on Pwincess' great site there and just accidently clicked on the link about Mother Theresa. I couldnt help thinking if Pwincess is going to do something like that now that the Pope has died. I know even Pwincess wouldnt do that but i suppose it shows the depravity that has taken over my thinking since ive become more and more under Her spell. Ive tried over and over again to stop...really i have , but its soo hard, if not impossible.
I hate what my life has become, but what am i to do? How can i escape it? i know what Pwincess has suggested "pills, pills, pills" but i dont wan that. I just want to be loved. |
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| Shaking |
[Mar. 13th, 2005|03:17 am] |
 
shaking uncontrollaby as i write this...its so long since i updated my journal. i tried to stay away from Princess, even though i knew it was futile as She had taken al my savings..i tried sooo hard but it was futile, i knew id be back... i need Her greed, i need to hear Her voice, Her breath, Her laugh as She sighs and makes fun of me.
I made contact again with Pwincess last week and i confessed that
i had suicidal tendancies..Princess found this hysterical and made me give Her specific details about how i tried to kill myself before. I couldnt stop shaking as i gave them to Her..She laughed so hard, i had never heard Her laugh so much before..
Princess really raped me the last few weeks...She took $100 twice..100 to me is like 10000 to a normal person as im pathetically poor..Princess loved the fact though that i will have to cut back on the amount that i eat as a result cause literally im broke... sob sob
I asked Princess what i should write here and She said that i should write that She hates me. This made me so sad..i always knew She disliked me but i never really knew the depth of Her hate for me. I think She would love to kill me really if She got the chance. Hopefully, someday, i can meet Her rt and She can beat the crap out of me. Id love to feel Her wrath in person even though i know it would be really scary.
i am still a virgin and not making any progress.. I am too scared to try cause of my puny cock..anyway...im shaking so much i better stop as im attracting the wrong sort of attention here in the cafe.
oink oink |
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| mcdonalds |
[Sep. 27th, 2004|03:14 am] |
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i found out that i got refused for a job at mcdonalds today..im distraught but Princess found it the funniest thing ever. I had went for the interview in a suit which i though was standard practice but Princess thought that was the funniest thing ever..ii could hear Her almost crying with laughter as She made fun of me..im soooo pathetic...its not fair..i hate myself |
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| pills pills pills |
[Sep. 26th, 2004|07:42 am] |
I made the mistake of telling Princess that i tried to commit suicide before... She laughed Her ass off and said that i was a total loser. She also made me slap myself in the face for Her and shouted "HARDER" after every blow. her laugh was exquisite and my face was read for half an hour afterwards. She then made me piss on the floor and i had to stew in it for a half hour as Princess was busy..
i really love Princess |
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[Sep. 20th, 2004|05:21 am] |
Today was another day spent thinking about my Pwincess...She found out more about me,how i was given up for adoption by my parents as they thought i was deformed..i have a puny little thing and Pwincess constantly makes fun about it. I even found myself asking Pwincess to be my mommy which She found hysterical.
I phoned Pwincess and before i knew it i went from having a normal conversation to drinking 22 shots of vodka and shitting into a bowl...i then had to mix some leftovers from my friends chinese meal into it and eat it(also stick my face in it)
Pwincess then asked me to call back in 15 mins as She wwanted to make lunch. However, i couldnt as i had to hide in a cupboard as my friends came back unexpecdedly..i had to hide there for a few hours without my phone so i couldnt phone Pwincess back. She has just informed me that She has taken my last 50 bucks as penalty..sob sob..i hope She puts it to good use...
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| lack of sleep |
[Sep. 19th, 2004|07:23 am] |
Princess has asked me to post to tell everyone how much of a loser i am. I went 48 hours without sleep. Then, when She finally said i could sleep as She was going out partying, i couldnt sleep as i was thinking about Her. Therefore, i ended up running for half an hour back to the cybercafe to chat with Her Highness again. She laughed and laughed and laughed. I am shaking, but i cant stop as im addicted. Give me cocaine or alcohol anyday...at leat those are addictions that You can overcome. Princess, on the other hand is irresistible and amazing!
oink oink
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| oink oink |
[Sep. 18th, 2004|11:34 pm] |
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oink oink...im just updating You all to tell You what an incredible experience i had with Pwincess yesterday and today. First off She took my details and we applied for another credit card for me. Then, She made me ring the credit card company and ask them to increase the limit on my existing card. Then, i had to apply for a loan of 5,000. Im hoping that they give it to but i dont know if they will since im soooo poor. Pwincess had me apply for a second job to supplement my miserly pathetic income. She says She is going to use it to buy GUCCI! She made me shout that on the phone as i slapped my face HARD and She counted to 20. Then i had to whip my ass 50 times as i pretended i was a horse....She laughed so much..it was amazing! I then drank my piss and She had me hold it in my mouth for ages. Pwincess was pleased and said She had found my one gift! I can hold pee in my mouth for ages.... After what felt like ages and ages, i started to feel sick though, and i puked. Pwincess made me lick it up though. Then later, my roommate came in as i was at the side of my bed and started talking to me. Pwincess was SCREAMING on the phone that "PIGGY LIKES TO DRINK PEE, PIGGY LIKES TO DRINK PEE"hoping he would hear. There was also a glass of piss on the floor beside me. I hope he didnt see it but i think he did. He must have definitely heard Her shouting though..sob sob..This is just some of my incredible journey. I also put things up my ass, then in my mouth..my journey has begun, where it ends only THE GREAT ONE knows...oink oink |
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[Sep. 18th, 2004|03:34 am] |
gulp..ive just been informed that i must post more in the group..Princess has informed me that i must get a second job...You see, i dont earn as much as She'd like so i must get a second income....and send it all to Her. I have the hiccups as i write, i dont know if that thats nerves or what..it must be...
She also said that i will be getting more credit cards to drive me further into debt..although i already owe the bank loads..the Priness has just informed me that i will be "the poorest little man in ireland"..slaving away at 3 jobs..eating bolied potatoes and stiff gone off bread, sleeping a mere 6 hours a night at most..while Princess relaxes in Her luxurious surroundings enjoying her life.
oink oink |
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| gup |
[Sep. 18th, 2004|03:10 am] |
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well, er um..i never thought id be here, i always used to laugh and i suppose admire in some ways the guys that were on here. But i NEVER imagined i would become one of them. I dont know whether i should be happy or sad! Im still shaking with excitement and i suppose a little fear. I am just after spending my first night serving Princess. I thought at first it would be just an innocent phonecall..a few mins. at the exhorbenent rate of $2.50 a minute..a rate i cant afford but yet if it was for only a few mins. , perhaps i could suffer....Over an hour later and $300 poorer, i was crying, whimpering, didnt know whether i was coming or going..and i had a journal!! What can i say...what should i say....hypnotised, mystified, spellbound...i dont know whats happened, i dont know what the future holds...im pissing my pants just thinking about it..oink oink |
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